Phew...Examinations is finally over and it will a long vacation for me. Well, these few days, i am pretty miserable. My life is going to be in darkness soon as one of my very best friend had broke friendship ties with me. Supposingly, a friend that you have cherish it for three years. And now, she just break frienship ties with you saying that you have betray her trust. Actually, it's partly my fault. It all started like that. During one time after school, i came to look for her and she use one of my another friend's phone to sms her bf. And this, i felt that it's totally unfair to me because most of the time she told mot of the secrets to my the other three friends. But the fact is that me is kept in the dark and knowing nothing about it at all. As a group, i felt that we should share things together and so on and not making another party upset about it. After this incident, she told the other three friends about it. And all this while, they have been talking bad about me. Also, i have tried means and ways to salvage my friendship between me and that friend. I sms her a few times, but she did not reply and i wrote a letter to her. Still, she reject my letter and pass it to another friend saying that she wants to break friendship ties with me. For that, i was totally misierable and my life was filled of loneliness. Well, i really don't know what to do. If i call her and say sorry, i feared that she won't answer my call. But if i say sorry to her face to face, i scared that later she reject me. And the fact is that me is going to beijing with her and some of my other good friends. But now, they want to left me out at there and leaving me with no partners at all. This, i felt that it's really unfair to me and it's totally unacceptable in which i define that in my own dictionary. For now, i just have to pray. Well, i guessed that chew yee was really right. Maybe god wants to put me in the run. Till now, i really wished that she would sms me, call me or what and patch things up. But i know that it's totally impossible fot that to happen. Sometimes, i really hoped that someone is by my side guiding me all through. Anyway, time is getting late for me. Sweet dre@ms and good night diary!
